You’re working at your dream job but you’re just not cutting it 

Since high school I always wanted to be a news reporter. I would eat, sleep, and breath the news. Every day I would catch the 5 o’ clock news in the morning and evening to hear about the latest in politics and crime. I even remember watching my favorite reporters and emulate them in my bathroom mirror. However, fast forward 10 years later and I’m finally a reporter but I don’t know if I’m any good at it.  

Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy telling stories but on many days I miss the mark and I have embarrass myself on tv on too many occassions. It leaves me wondering if I was called to do this? Am I overthinking the process? How come this job isn’t coming easy to me? Why AM I having such a hard time doing my job well? And after obessing over these questioms for hours I realized that I’vebeen doing a few things wrong.

First mistake not asking the right question how can I improve

For the majority of my time in Iowa my scripts have been ripped apart by my producers. And with each day my confidence has taken a beating. Many days I just wanted to give up. I felt unfit for my job.  A few people would help tighten up my scripts and afterwards instead of reviewing the changes later I was just happy I got through the beating. Anyway I have had some people try to help but it just wouldn’t stick. I think it was mainly because I was so stressed out and anxious. That’s until one co-worker sat with me and explained to me where I was going wrong. Instead of ripping up my copy he simply put suggestions in my copy. And what a sigh of relief that was for me. It helped me realize that I should have been asking where did I go wrong. Also his critique helped me realized that, ‘I’m not bad bit here’s how I could make it better.’ My confidence went through the roof. 

Second, study your craft

2 Timothy 2:15 from the Amplified version  says ‘Study and do your best to present yourself to God approved, a workman [tested by trial] who has no reason to be ashamed, accurately handling and skillfully teaching the word of truth.’

I’ll be honest for most of my time in Iowa I did not study as much should had. Instead I became very depressed. And I loaded my schedule with community activities, hung out with friends and said nothing but negative things about myself. If that’s you stop! Life and death lies on the power of the tongue and I spoke death upon my situation. As a result my life reflected my thoughts.

Third, review your notes

After I my producer’s gave me corrections I didn’t hold to my scripts and if I did I didn’t review them. Terrible idea.

Lastly, encourage yourself 

Keep striving for your goals. You are in the right career. You’re not stupid. You are capable of doing amazing things at your job and you are better than you think.  You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you but you must listen to his voice.  Don’t worry. God’s got your back you just hold onto your faith.

Dear Lord, 

I thank you for this moment of clarity in my life. Lord, I thank you for showing me the error of my ways. I come asking you for total focus. Help me to focus on what lies ahead of me and not think about the things of the past. Lord, I ask you to guide my footsteps and guard my tongue. Stop me from talking bad about my situation. Hold my hand and help me to be bold. In Jesus name I pray.


I prayed but I’m still unhappy

Have you ever prayed for something and God answers your prayers? But you’re still not happy? And things are still going wrong?!

Well that’s me right now and it has been me for a while. For almost 2 years I’ve worked as a journalist in Iowa and I have single handly turned my experience into one of the roughest times in my life. Aside from being thousands of miles away from home, life on my dream job has been anything but a dream.

When I initially started my job I was confident and ready to take on the world! I craved to crack stories and be a voice for the people but I quickly realized and was told by my higher ups that I wasn’t good and that shook my confidence. I began to doubt my writing abilities. I hated the sound of my own voice and I felt totally inadequate to do my job. I often leaned on others to help with everything because I didn’t trust myself. I was afraid of messing up.  

I have often made my mistakes apart of my identity. Instead of embracing my victories I would flood my mind with everything that went wrong. And left feeling inadequate. I would pray for help but in the back of my mind I was strategizing how I could get through the situation. Bad idea! I basically lacked faith and I’m working on rebuilding it.
And this may sound a little corny but I had a dream that put a lot of things into perspective. I can’t remember the details of it but I remember having a conversation with a friend. And in my dream they expressed how much they loved God but their actions and words didn’t lined up with his Word. I became critical of my friend and then woke up. I thought about it for awhile and realized that that friend in the dream was me.

I was speaking faith but in the back of my mind I leaned on my history to lead me instead of focusing on things placed in front of me. I lacked faith and focus. 

Proverbs 3:5 tells us to ‘lean not unto your own understanding.’ But almost every single moment that I’ve been here I have I have done just that. I tried to solve my own problems and looked for council from my family, friends and co workers and mothing has helped. Instead it just feed the monster of my insecurities. I fell into depression and felt hopeless but I could’ve avoided those feelings if I would have handed them over to my Lorder and Saviour,  Jesus Christ.

Here’s a reminder Hebrews 11:1 says ‘Now faith is the things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.’ 

So where is your faith? Is like a flickering light or has the light bulb burned out?  It doesn’t matter where you are because I get it. I’ve been there and sometimes I find myself back in that place but you have to remind yourself that this battle is not yours but it’s the Lord’s battle.

Pray this with me: Dear Lord, I thank you for every opportunity you have provided me. I even thank you for this trial that I’m going through right now. Lord, I ask you to help me lean not unto my own understanding but to trust you in everything I do. I ask you to go ahead of me today and to order my footsteps. In your word you say that no weapon formed against me shall prosper so I ask you to walk beside me as I step into this new day. Lead me and remind me of your goodness constantly throughout the day.


So happy to rely on God for my happiness, not my job

Hey All,

This is a short post. For several weeks my co-worker has complained to me about how much he hate his job. How he feels overwork and under appreciated. I listen to him and for the most part, I agree. Our job can be pretty miserable at times but the difference between me and him is that I know my help comes from the Lord. I know that God is my provider and supplier. I lean on Him to make me happy. I lean on him to fulfill all of my needs. I lean on Him to encourage me to keep pushing to my goals.

Here is some hot tea for you, the people on your job are not responsible for your happiness. Sure it would nice to get a pat on the back every so often but that’s not reality. For awhile I depended on my co-workers to rate my worth to the company. For months my performance suffered because I looked for validation. However, when I decided to talk to God about my performance he gave me new insight about myself and the company. He told me that I am good enough to work here. He also told me to seek him and not people. Once I started doing that he changed my work ethic and my attitude.

The reality is that I was hired to do a job. People cannot affirm us only God can. Only God can fill those empty places that are empty. Psalm 23’The Lord is my Shepherd I shall not want!’  Rather than waiting for people to recognize your gifts seek God so he can show you your gifts.

As we head into a new week and into the month of May I want to encourage you to seek God for all of your needs. He is your shepherd and He wants to take care you.  He cares about your growth and well-being. He wants to protect you and lead you away from anything that could harm you.  So trust him. Love you all!

New Year, New Me: Making a change for the better

It’s finally 2017 and like most people I want to be a better version of myself.  So I’ve compiled a list to point me in the right direction.

MAKE UP YOUR MIND– You cannot walk into 2017  with the same mindset you had in 2016.  If you want to become a better version of yourself you must accept the things you can change and have the courage to accept the things you can’t change.  You can accomplish every dream that God has placed in your heart. You have what it takes to accomplish your dreams but you have to believe in yourself. Go look in the mirror remind yourself how amazing you are.

TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF– You cannot do anything for others if you do not take care of yourself first. Treat yourself to a spa day. Find a quiet place and open your Bible. Ask God to search your heart and to reveal things to you. He will tell you how to handle difficult situations and he’ll show you things about yourself. God’s voice will always put you at ease.

MAKE A CALENDAR – I have heard that God laughs at our plans and if that’s true He is laughing really hard at me. This year I have organized my calendar from January to December of everything that I want to accomplish. I want to be intentional about my next steps forward in life and I feel 1000% less stressed.

EXERCISE AND EAT HEALTHIER– This is a big challenge for me. I blame my unhealthy eating  and lack of exercise on my income and schedul but we all have to do better. Health experts say  when you take care of your temple you not only feel better but you add years onto your life. Which will help us all carry out the plans God has for our lives.

MAKE YOUR GOALS CLEAR– Think about where you want to be at the end of 2017?  Think about it and write it down. Make your goals plain. I wrote my goals on a dry erase board and placed tehm on bedroom wall. So every morning when I wake up I see it and I’m reminded that my current situation will help me get to where I want to go.

SET BOUNDARIES– You are precious. Don’t give everybody excess to your life. Remember people will only treat you the way you allow them to treat you. So keep your word. Show up on time and don’t be afraid to tell people that you have to get back to them. Don’t play the extra in your movie.

DON’T COMPARE YOUR JOURNEY- Theodore Roosevelt said ‘Comparison is the thief of joy.’  In the Bible  2 Corinthians 10:12 reads “We do not dare to classify or compare ourselves with some who commend themselves. When they measure themselves by themselves and compare themselves with themselves, they are not wise.” Be wise ladies.  We are smart women that can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. Don’t allow social media to cloud your preception of reality. Now it is time to for you to share your story.

COMPLIMENT YOURSELF- You will not make it through the year if you do not pat yourself on the back. You are not a complete screw up. You got through the day! That is a big accomplishment.

BE FLEXIBLE– Yes, I talked about sticking to your plans but if you can squeeze in some time with friends or family do it. Life is too short to take those who support your growth for granted.

Last but not least just be good to yourself. Learn more.  Ask questions.  Challenge ideas.  And place your best foot forward in 2017 because this year is your year.


Take the world off of your shoulders and start loving yourself a little more

PhotoGrid_1472940762854Life can be complicated.  So complicated that often times we forget about loving ourselves just a little more.  We run our lives based on schedules and to-do lists hoping to achieve them all before nightfall but life is a process.  It doesn’t care who you are or how impatient you may be it demands you to  take a number and wait in line.  So while I wait for a break through,  I’m learning to appreciate where I am now.

‘You have to prepare yourself for success.’   Every time I hear somebody say this it freaks me out. Immediately, I devote all of my free time to my craft.  Practicing day and night almost obsessing over it 24/7 and never taking a break from it.  Eventually, I would stop out of frustratio.  So one day while I was frustrated I searched for a sermon to help me put things into perspective.  I clicked on a sermon by T.D Jakes on YouTube and I can’t remember the name of it but the theme was about pressing forward.  The whole sermon was about an hour long but only one thing stuck out to me.  He said this generation of people lack resilience.  Wow!  How often do we drop our faith when our situations get difficult?  But God has you right where He wants you.  Joshua 1:9 “Have not I commanded thee?  Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid,  neither be thou dismayed;  for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.’ Don’t lose the faith.

…So I had to take a step back and look in the mirror I wrote a list of everything God has brought me through and all of my frustrations immediately went away.  God has brought me through so much.  How dare I stress out and allow my bad moments to dictate my attitude towards life?  I have gone through so many things and God has brought me through time and time again.  I believe that God has such a divine purpose for our lives that if He told us   we would probably freak out and mess everything up.  If you have burning desire to achieve something follow it. If your gut is telling you to go after something do it.  I believe that’s His way of preparing us for the  next step in our lives.  God just  want us all to..

…Love ourselves a little more and lay all of  my insecurities,  doubts,  issues and worries at His feet on the daily basis.  I believe building a stronger relationship with God ultimately helps us all to build a better relationship with ourselves.  He gave us all dreams to achieve  for a reason. John 10:10 says “I came that they may have and enjoy life, and have it in abundance (to the full, till it overflows).”

I feel better giving my life over to God and loving the life He’s given me just a little more.

Lastly ladies you probably noticed how I bounced between pronouns throughout this article but it was because I know that somebody out there is probably going through a hard time trying to balance the world on their shoulder but I just want to let you know that God has your back.  Isaiah 54:7, no weapon formed against you shall prosper. Situations will come up against you but it will not prosper.  Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ has given us life to live more abundantly but we have to make Him a priority. In the meantime ladies, love yourself a little more and fit God in your schedule more often.

Stay blessed

The ‘S’ Guide